Some days I don't know how to do this life with out a momma. Some days my life feels like a mess and I need to hear her telling me that I'm doing o.k. Life has always felt so short to do all that I want to do, but now it just feels so long. How on earth can I do even another 30 years with out her?
But then, my Jesus, my friend, takes me by the hand and tells me that I am doing o.k., just follow my voice he tells me. I will.
I will feast on his word. I will rise early to seek him. He is my light. Sadness takes over in the darkness of night. Have you ever noticed that? When the sun goes down how life seems less bearable? I think that is why God tells us that when we finally see him, we will no longer need the sun to light our days or a moon to light our nights. Other than the obvious reasons we need the sun, sunshine just makes our spirit's happy. He is light and all that that we get from him will be all that we need. It is all that we need, but the world blurrs my vision, sadness blurrs my vision and I need to be reminded. As I walked this morning and saw all of his beauty around me and I was reminded, the Lord, my God and King, is my friend. Friends hold you up when you can't do it on your own, He is the Lord, He has the power to get me through this. I am so grateful for a God who doesn't just reign, but loves.
In the past month I have had the privilege of making several new friends. Making new friends is one of my favorite parts of life, so it has been a blessing to me. While at the home of my friend's mothers, Oli, my 3 year old, was calling her Grandma. When she told me, it first made my heart ache, but I heard him whisper "I will give you people, to get you through this life". Isn't he so gracious! He knows my need before I even speak it, and answers just when I need Him to.
